To Love As I Was Loved

现在有云遮蔽,人不得见穹苍的光亮;但风吹过,天又发晴,金光出于北方,在神那里有可怕的威严。<约伯记37:22-23>

幸福

January2

昨天上火车前,我抬头使劲看了一下香港的天——云朵总是在奔跑着,一小朵儿一小朵儿,疙瘩汤一般。

火车歌唱着向北方开去,尽管它可能在哭泣,而真正歌唱的是我。很快出了香港,仅是离别半年,但仍旧有些许不舍,感谢香港,一个让我成长的地方,一个让我知道自己有多么幸福的地方。Whatever does not destroy me makes me stronger.

清晨一睁眼,看到白色,起初竟有些陌生——白雪覆盖的世界,让我莫名地激动起来,起身,穿衣,跳到窗前,看村庄,池塘,喜鹊窝,各种口号和标语。有的房子和铁路挨得那么近,但是很快就错过,继而远去。两个世界。那么近,那么远。沈从文写过中原地区的云糙到可以揪下一把去蒸窝窝头——边看边琢磨,觉得这比喻太绝了——继而开始想念北京的菜团子……

因为大雪和修路火车晚点了四个钟头。等待是焦灼的——尤其是捧着方便面想着涮羊肉的时候。不过这也是好事儿,一边看着路旁的村落,一边回想刚过去的2006……

风尘仆仆。看到了等待着的父母,归家,幸福——我甚至不敢去仔细琢磨我有多么的幸福。爸爸妈妈太爱我了,而且他们是以一种我最接受的方式来爱我,同时这种爱与被爱的关系也是健康的,即不含蓄到影响了感知,也没有充足到溺爱。感谢主!床下抽屉里永远是用不完的漂亮袜子与内衣;被子总是芳香又柔软;各个角落总是有各种有趣的小玩意;连厕所里也放着我喜欢的蜡烛;妈妈为了我在瑞典的日子准备了好多漂亮的毛衣和披肩;爸爸为我买了充满童趣的小猪自动充电手电筒;冰箱里总是有我爱喝的酸奶;每次回家妈妈都会拿出我最喜欢的印有The Simpson's 的睡衣;每次回家他们都买花摆在家里……我真的是有点儿不敢去细想,因为我怕我承受不住这些细腻的爱,更不知道我能做些什么去回报他们——尽管他们不图我的回报。

于是我就在上帝面前为我家献上祷告吧。感谢主给我这么幸福的家庭,更重要的是,感谢主赐给我一颗感恩的心,无论在何种境遇中都看到幸福的一面。求主在这新的一年带领我们,恩顾我们,愿我们成为主所喜爱的儿女,荣耀他的名!

主,感谢你赐我幸福,感谢你赐我一颗心去感受到这些幸福,也求你赐我能力,也让他人幸福。

我希望我的2007年,

多些感恩,少些抱怨;

多些爱心,少些埋怨;

多些信靠,少些焦虑;

多些智慧,少些骄傲;

多些思考,少些论断;

多些宽容,少些记恨;

……

6 Comments to

“幸福”

  1. On January 4th, 2007 at 12:53 pm01 YoL Says:

    hi there, ready for ur trip to Europe?

    I am looking 4 some helpers for this:
    http://www.internationalpen.org.uk/
    index.php?pid=33&
    aid=502&query=Hong%20Kong

    I know u won’t be able to come, but I wonder whether Wang Zi Yan is interested in it. The problem is that I don’t know how to contact him.

    I have to hand in the name list of the helpers by noon tmr, so would u plz give me any numbers of him or even ask him for me ASAP?

    Looking forward to ur message!

    Thx a million~

  2. On January 4th, 2007 at 12:53 pm01 Zihona Says:

    Thank you very much for your blessings but I have no idea who you are.

    I’ve been happy these days with my family thus I seldom surf the internet. Sorry for the late reply.

    I’ve informed Ziyan of the info above and I believe he’ll leave a message here very quickly. You could also reach me at zihona@gmail.com.

    May the love of Jesus be always with you.

    In Him,
    Zihona

  3. On January 4th, 2007 at 12:53 pm01 水清石见 Says:

    Sorry that I cannot get through the address. And my email is NeptWang@gmail.com ( if it is still in time ).

  4. On January 4th, 2007 at 12:53 pm01 Zihona Says:

    It’s still quite hard for us to visit some websites abroad.

  5. On January 5th, 2007 at 12:53 pm01 YoL Says:

    ha, it’s me la, yolanda ma, using the YoL just to make it short…
    It is Independent Pen Asian Conference, and I have already got enough helpers, including some u guys are familiar with, like Yige and Chenshu, hehe
    Anyway, thank u both~!

    YoL MJX

  6. On January 5th, 2007 at 12:53 pm01 Zihona Says:

    That’s cool.
    God bless you.

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